what's holding me back? | Wednesday, December 14, 2005
seriously, i don't know what's holding me back to do all the things i want to do. maybe i'm tired. maybe no motivation. used to be so confident in doing everything. perhaps too much till i fell hard which cannot gain back.
john little expo fair ended. next fair would probably be metro fair at expo again.still not too sure if i wanna work anot. tired i seem to be, but working makes me pass my time faster. time's going fast, but it's slow death for me. working just make the process faster. OMg...i don't know what i'm typing. i just typed what's in my heart. don't worry, i'm fine. maybe i have depression? who knows? only God...
another thing is my grandpa fainted. minor stroke but recovering well. damn. what's going on. first my mum. now my grandpa. so who's next? me? who knows? cause i'm not feeling too well these days, because of my nose.
Did i mention nose? crap...i think that's the problem. after the operation i seem to be "physically handicapped", because i can't do physical demanding execises/jobs. Sucks right? so maybe no confidence to do things when i feel self-deprived, low esteem.
one more thing. there's this gal who quarrelled with the guy he liked , then she took her anger on me. It's alright for me. But she went around spreading fake rumours about me. Lucky, she doesn't know much of my friends. Recently, she tried borrowing money from me. U know what? She told others she deleted my no from her phone, but how the hell she got my no to ask me to lend her? ...really dots man this type of person...never step on your tail also, why come and defame me. btw, she's maggie. so peeps out there take note of this name. bWaHaha....just kidding...not all with this name has attitude...
*things i wanna do meet them for bball....i really miss it... shopping spree....got money no time also -_-" study! sounds early to prepare for exam ... :p
*plans thinking of opening desert shop. so nice right. everyday can eat for free. ^^ no la....different concept shop. Hope noone think of this idea before i save enough money to open.
maybe go into retailing. source for products overseas then create a brand name for the shop. like 77th street
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Name: Ah Mun/Chris Age: 19
Currently third year student of Biz-It in Singapore Polytechnic.
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