it's 3:30am now, and i don't feel tired nor sleepy. These days there's something wrong with my body. Malfunction. No sense of tiredness, low attention span, always hungry.....Or is there something bothering me?I don't know, so i'm here to figure what's going on...
some thoughts going thru my head:
1)studies....haven't been doing well... 2)physical fitness....really no stamina, can't last more than 3 hrs on bball court now i guess.... 3)thoughts? been thinking far too much these days.... 4)parents- not they having problems with them , but i find myself a big problem to them.... 5)Siblings-no time for them either. neither do they have time. They have their own jobs and life now. 6)friends-especially bball clickz, sorry for not spending time with you guys lately. Cause i'm hit and down. 7)"part time business"- no time to organise the fishes for sale too..... 8)driving license-want to get it asap too... 9)job-looking for a job after exams, need to start saving some money for further studies... 10)lifestyle- this is not what i want, i want to chill out, clubbing.....etc 11)i'm dependant on others....i feel... 12)i want to go for the trial for SuperHost....^^...what kind of problem is this~~! well, been a compere was once my dream, and now it may be realised....why not give it a try? 13)nose- hope it won't give me any more problem cause there was some bleeding few weeks back after my classmate threw her soft toy at my nose. 14)losing faith in myself.----God, tell me why? 15)think i'm too nice to pple, shouldn't be nice cause people will more advantages of you. You give an inch , but they take a foot. 16)Utterly no thought of competition. Like to do better than others etc. Practically, i'm losing this spirit. 17)i've been a failure since i entered Poly. Wasted all my time. 18)am i suffering from low self esteem?haha...i think i have moderate of it...
so 18 thoughts for a 18 guy here at this moment which he should be sleeping... well....off to study... .cheers!
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Created at 3:30 AM
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^^Don't know what title to put^^ | Thursday, September 22, 2005
Business Accounting Paper down!....1 more to go.... the paper was ok, rather easy and if i didn't slack so much during the study week, i could have scored an A... Anyway, praying hard to get a B+...
was reading Jerome's blog,and he was sharing that he didn't get to celebrate his bdays much. To me, birthdays are simply just a date. So what if you get one year older but u cannot grow up mentally? like 18,21,25 years old....but your mentality is still at 16? (been independant is part of growing up, those who' can be independant, can't survive in this world when they start working) Perhaps i didn't get to celebrate much with my family too, cause every year my parents just give me $100 or either, something in mind like handphone...etc. Instead, i love celebrating bdays.Not just the bashing part, but the smiles u see on the friend's face. Birthdays, are perhaps the day in that year which u should reflect what you have done in a year. Have u become a better person? What are your achievements? Have u hurt someone? Have u fallen in love? Have you been filial?.....every year my bday wish is the same, just want my family and friends to have peace and free from troubles.
**** SO SO Sorry for those whom i have forgotton your birthdays, anyway....belated happy bday wish from me and u can come and find me for a prezzie****
---- i'm sort of pissed with what my friend did to this gal recently. He broke off with this gal to be with his previous gf. Wth~!....since you didn't like her, why go for her in the first place. What a basta*rd!..... really throw the face of guys , and i don't wish to tell anyone i know this guy.... Anyway, i feel that current gf shouldn't have accepted him either. He could jolly well dumped you and get back with another gal. ---- why are relationships taken so lightly?.... how could "Let's break up." be said so easily from someone's mouth when he/she declared the love for each other to be so strong in the first place?.... ----
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Created at 6:13 PM
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6 more days! | Monday, September 19, 2005
Exactly six more days from now, it's holiday!
With only 2 papers, i guess everything would be over soon.
Business Accounting & Economics, Here i come!~
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Created at 11:59 PM
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Name: Ah Mun/Chris Age: 19
Currently third year student of Biz-It in Singapore Polytechnic.
Planning to go SIM to further in Marketing.
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