but think i looking for a new jog. Not stop working , but looking for a new job.
the amt i received was not bad bah, higher than the full-time over there cause i did two shifts sometimes.
have money now, but not going to anyhow spend la. it's really hard earned money. Really sweat,blood and blisters in return for this sum of money. haha....sounds as if it's hard labour eh? i have cuts and blisters all over my hands , and my pair of hands are damn dry now la.
maybe i should just work and work for money now. be a money grabber. be a money face. LOL. cause in this society, it's all abt money. who cares u have the capabilites? charisma? u are a nice guy?noone cares..... it's all abt certificates.When i have more money, i can go into higher studies. right? u guys agree?
i have thought abt it. After getting diploma, i get my ACCA cert, den a deg in Biz Admin and another General Management. Abit too far now, but i think it's always better to think ahead.
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| Wednesday, November 09, 2005
"".... have u waited for someone who has someone else in mind? do u find urself losing the feel with the person whom u said "i love u" to? have u ever get to know another gal to make her jealous? have u ever find someone to be her substitute? did u break off with someone to be with her?
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tired....but just can't get to sleep.... so wrote down some questions which happened to my friends around me....
perhaps it's the influence from my family. i believe one should go into a relationship only when he seriuosly like her and can really make her happy w/o seeing tears on her face. That's why i avoided so many relationships in the past. I cannot even handle my problems , how could i make sure she's alright with me? Keeping single might be the answer.
one weakness of mine would be putting all the faults and burdens on myself. not others. If something fails, it would be my inefficency or incapability. maybe this can be considered as a strength too?
.....got to work later....530-1030.... probably watching movie with sim after school.....else i'm so damn bored after 12pm...
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Created at 1:56 AM
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woke up damn tired, then decided to skip first 2 lectures . Had writing lesson which was so boring~~....lucky the programming module woke me up!...
what's more today? had a din over the phone with the company's boss's daughter. Was asking for my pay and she kept pushing it to another day this week. They dragged few times, and i'm getting pissed. As a student, i can't probably survive 6 weeks of work w/o any pay and eat from my own pockets.
never get so tensed in poly life before when i heard tests coming. don't know why cause i just wanna do well for now. i don't want disappoint my mum and more importantly, prove to myself i still can do it. This would just be like practising few hundreds of 3 pts on the court alone to achieve the accuracy i wanted. So this time, it will be hours on my bed mugging. ** i'm not a nerd :P**
friends have been very important to me all these while. but thoughts just came to my mind and all became even more important to me. i'm afraid of losing them. every single one of them. So, i decided to send an sms to everyone that's important to me. just a simple one.
sooo.....these few weeks aren't going smoothly for me. but i believe i can hold on to everything.
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Created at 12:17 AM
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i feel weary. at last. | Monday, November 07, 2005
"...i'm finally feeling tired. long time since i felt this way. it's not a breakdown, but a test for my endurance and prepare myself for the road ahead. i'm just like a clown. novice level. Juggling family, friends, work, studies, relationship. U might think it's nothing, but when time is going against u, u really can't do anything. Parents catching up with age, no time for friends and neither do they have much time too, work so that i don't need to depend solely from my parents, studies which i have been slacking for years, and relationship which i admit i'm quite bad in it. For 3 yrs 9 mths, been stuck to someone. But it's cleared finally...."
Been working over the weekends, and the job is getting slack cause they are less customers to entertain at the outlet over at PS. Still, it's tiring for me. Can u believe it? I used to be 55kg, but now? less 10kg after i started working! Someone teach me how to gain weight please?! Anyway, i'm still deciding whether i should carry on working. The pay's delay and now i definitely can't survive by supporting with my savings. Maybe i'm asking for weekly pay. If not, really need to eat bread everyday .
Meet this promoter selling skates yesterday. Very funny fellow. Always talk like some cartoon characters then make super cold jokes. Then he shared with me that his gf got laid by 7 guys when she was on drugs. Sad case, so gals out there shouldn't touch any drugs. And he taught me stuff which i never realised. Things which a 18 should be enjoying. Chilling.Clubbing...etc. Maybe i'm missing what a 18 should do. But the end of the day, he ended with " it's what u chose to be, don't blame on others abt what u have chose".
For today, been schooling for the whole day. What else can it be right? Long naggy lectures going on here and there, but i'm quite amazed for my attention span. Actually last throughout the day. But the very moment i landed om my bed, i dozed off. Even my grandma who cooked for us and left, i also didn't know! Shows how tired i am.
tired of everything. all i want is just a gd sleep.
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Name: Ah Mun/Chris Age: 19
Currently third year student of Biz-It in Singapore Polytechnic.
Planning to go SIM to further in Marketing.
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