times are never like before. | Saturday, November 19, 2005
things will never be the same. the moments will never be revived again.
sad to say. things are constantly changing. ever-changing world i believe which i never did before.
the things which we believed it, the bonds which we used to have, will never return. Cause everyone has changed.Be it influence from new friends, girlfriends or a new environment after secondary sch. It's just an excuse. Perhaps, everyone including me, has forgotton how to give. Been selfish might be the trend now. Maybe i should just join in. It's just part of growing up. Learning to accept what's gone and what's there.
...it's now or never...
previous post can simply be ignored.
can't sleep thx to U.
if u didnt matter to me, u think i care so much?
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| Wednesday, November 16, 2005
for the first time i met you, i knew you were the girl of my dream.
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self-reflection-part(2) | Sunday, November 13, 2005
sooo....this is the real part which i wanna write.
i always have this feeling to myself. I'm never good enough for her. i'm like never somewhere near her . Far away from her. Wondering what i could offer. I'm really hampered by confidence. Moments are always like these; when i have confidence, she's gone; when i have none, she's out there . Come'on FM, give urself some confidence. --Apple told me it was very silly to think like this.U guys think so? Everyone's equal like what she said.--
'friends comes and go". This phrase quoted from one of my best friend. Seriously, i never agree to that statement. True friends stay by your side no matter what happenes. Cause i experienced that before. Maybe people who believe in that statement could never trust someone, and would never find a true friend for himself. --friends are damn important to me. And i mean only true friends. Not those hi-bye friends in school.--
Today, i asked my dad to tag along to go with me to the bank at night and a short conversation taught me something.. I really know how great my dad is. Which i never thought to be because i used to hate him when i was in secondary sch. Not because the allowance he gives me every week. But, the scars left all over his bodies while working to support the family, the nonsense he has to put up with me and my siblings(it's really tremendous hurtful when we said those things we shouldn't have), upset when he sees we are behaving as though we never grow up, how much he understands mum more than us. So much more, like a never ending list. He's a person who keeps everything to himself, and loves us(siblings and me) which express through actions and little in words. It's the response we get from him when we gets in trouble outside. First to be there. Teaches us the right attitude to be a responsible human. He don't give u face and just scold u infront of everyone else if u are WRONG! Well, that's the part which i used to hate him for. But now, i'm feeling why he's doing so. Instead, i feel i'm growing because of that. That's right, it's "maturity". Maturity it's not something u can gain as u grow(in age). It's through experience. But i really feel i'm growing because of what he taught me through quarrels and scoldings from him.
-- i will continue another day. Elder bro's complaining. He wants the com.--
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a blog to me, it's a place for self reflection more than writing of what happened in our daily life. But....i will still start with what i done these few days.
Fri after sch, i worked from 1230-pm. Went home bathed+changed before heading to MC's house to play overnight mj. Was losing at first, but ending i had a winning streak so ended up with $40 winnings. Went home then helped out at store awhile cause really alot of people. The crowd cleared then i went upstairs to rest. Woke up at night, then slacked around at home.
Then today!!~~ woke up had dim sum at fortunate restaurant with family. The whole meal cost $110 for 4 persons, but it seems pretty reasonable cause we really ate alot. Then afternoon , my sis very bored at home so asked my played mahjong(again). I don't really have the itch to play , but i see her so bored so i entertained lor. So....played 2 rounds, and lucky streak again!...$80 winnings. BUt very bad la, my sis's friend first time come den lose so much. Win his money i also paiseh. The best thing today is not the winnings!
My mum struck lottery! haha....first prize but she bought i-bet only. So win like never win like dat. But, the number was given to her from my late grandfather! and it came out! maybe it's really my grandfather's blessings? But the prize money still not bad la, but a big gap between buying the actual number.
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Name: Ah Mun/Chris Age: 19
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