self-reflection-part(2) | Sunday, November 13, 2005
sooo....this is the real part which i wanna write.
i always have this feeling to myself. I'm never good enough for her. i'm like never somewhere near her . Far away from her. Wondering what i could offer. I'm really hampered by confidence. Moments are always like these; when i have confidence, she's gone; when i have none, she's out there . Come'on FM, give urself some confidence. --Apple told me it was very silly to think like this.U guys think so? Everyone's equal like what she said.--
'friends comes and go". This phrase quoted from one of my best friend. Seriously, i never agree to that statement. True friends stay by your side no matter what happenes. Cause i experienced that before. Maybe people who believe in that statement could never trust someone, and would never find a true friend for himself. --friends are damn important to me. And i mean only true friends. Not those hi-bye friends in school.--
Today, i asked my dad to tag along to go with me to the bank at night and a short conversation taught me something.. I really know how great my dad is. Which i never thought to be because i used to hate him when i was in secondary sch. Not because the allowance he gives me every week. But, the scars left all over his bodies while working to support the family, the nonsense he has to put up with me and my siblings(it's really tremendous hurtful when we said those things we shouldn't have), upset when he sees we are behaving as though we never grow up, how much he understands mum more than us. So much more, like a never ending list. He's a person who keeps everything to himself, and loves us(siblings and me) which express through actions and little in words. It's the response we get from him when we gets in trouble outside. First to be there. Teaches us the right attitude to be a responsible human. He don't give u face and just scold u infront of everyone else if u are WRONG! Well, that's the part which i used to hate him for. But now, i'm feeling why he's doing so. Instead, i feel i'm growing because of that. That's right, it's "maturity". Maturity it's not something u can gain as u grow(in age). It's through experience. But i really feel i'm growing because of what he taught me through quarrels and scoldings from him.
-- i will continue another day. Elder bro's complaining. He wants the com.--
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