i feel weary. at last. | Monday, November 07, 2005
"...i'm finally feeling tired. long time since i felt this way. it's not a breakdown, but a test for my endurance and prepare myself for the road ahead. i'm just like a clown. novice level. Juggling family, friends, work, studies, relationship. U might think it's nothing, but when time is going against u, u really can't do anything. Parents catching up with age, no time for friends and neither do they have much time too, work so that i don't need to depend solely from my parents, studies which i have been slacking for years, and relationship which i admit i'm quite bad in it. For 3 yrs 9 mths, been stuck to someone. But it's cleared finally...."
Been working over the weekends, and the job is getting slack cause they are less customers to entertain at the outlet over at PS. Still, it's tiring for me. Can u believe it? I used to be 55kg, but now? less 10kg after i started working! Someone teach me how to gain weight please?! Anyway, i'm still deciding whether i should carry on working. The pay's delay and now i definitely can't survive by supporting with my savings. Maybe i'm asking for weekly pay. If not, really need to eat bread everyday .
Meet this promoter selling skates yesterday. Very funny fellow. Always talk like some cartoon characters then make super cold jokes. Then he shared with me that his gf got laid by 7 guys when she was on drugs. Sad case, so gals out there shouldn't touch any drugs. And he taught me stuff which i never realised. Things which a 18 should be enjoying. Chilling.Clubbing...etc. Maybe i'm missing what a 18 should do. But the end of the day, he ended with " it's what u chose to be, don't blame on others abt what u have chose".
For today, been schooling for the whole day. What else can it be right? Long naggy lectures going on here and there, but i'm quite amazed for my attention span. Actually last throughout the day. But the very moment i landed om my bed, i dozed off. Even my grandma who cooked for us and left, i also didn't know! Shows how tired i am.
tired of everything. all i want is just a gd sleep.
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Name: Ah Mun/Chris Age: 19
Currently third year student of Biz-It in Singapore Polytechnic.
Planning to go SIM to further in Marketing.
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